It has been 6 years since it took you and I am 18 now. Every birthday I blow the candles out and it's just the same wish, I wish you were alive. Every shooting star or 11:11 wish. Look at me dad, your baby boy. Growing and glowing just like you. Mom always reminds me how much I look like you and act like you. She misses you too. Isn't crazy to see me in love now, I wish she could've met you. Why did you have to go dad? I wish I wasn't too weak to be your cure. Every time I speak about you I get that lump in my throat.... Dad I know I have gone through a rough patch but I only hope your not disappointed, ill get through it, for me and you. Dad, I love you.
I miss you so much. There's so much I wish I could just see you right now, I'm going through so much shit at the moment and you're the only one that would ever understand. You listened and gave me the best advice. There's a few secrets I want to tell you, okay, so don't judge me. One, exactly one month before you died, I was talking to you. And I told you that I loved you. And I meant it, there's hasn never been a day that I don't regret it. Two, I'm so sorry for all that shit I made you listen to, me ranting on about my life. Sometimes you got so annoyed with it, you just would ignore me. Three, I was so jealous when you started dating that one girl, I didn't even know her, but the fact that she didn't even like you she was just using you. And you didn't believe me, I had the biggest crush on you back then. So on October 3rd 2012 it will be exactly 3 months since you left. I love and miss you bestfriend.
Since little, mom always tell me to remember about you even thou i have no memory about us, big sis. You shouldn't leave this world too early. I really have no idea why am i missing you so much now. Mom said you are going to be around us still to protect us. Is it really, sis? I tend to call out your name in my head whenever i'm in a bad situation, 've just realized that i haven't done it for a while and i miss it, one of my habit...sis
I wish we had more time together. I only saw you for 6 years of my life. I miss I had you here to help you guide me through my teenage year, to be there when I'm older to hold my children, be there when i walk down the isle and help me when thing get rough. I miss you so much and I would give anything to see you just for an hour. To ask you how you've been and to just hear your voice. For some reason I keep thinking that one day I'll see you again... I don't know why, because I know it won't happen. But It's just comforting to think that.
I love you so much and I will forever. From your loving daughter Daisy